My older brother had a serious heart condition so a lot of the time I spent growing up in the shadows as his care required a lot of treatment and serious heart operations. I grew up subsequently being an attention seeker, getting involved in things good but mostly bad to get any kind of attention U could. I had a lot of trouble with my schooling, and never really accomplished much, education, and authority were not things I was good at accepting. I left school at the legal age I could, though I had been through a few schools due to my behavior and attitude. I had been involved with petty crime and things seemed to be set to grow from there. I looked a lot for acceptance from older people, always trying just to find a place to fit. This on one hand exposed me to things perhaps a lot of younger people don't get exposed to until a lot later. I sort of just cruised through life for the next few years living in the world and doing as the world does.

I met a young woman, and found comfort in her arms for a while but nothing seemed to fit or fill the hunger or darkness in my heart. When the relationship ended suddenly, finding out there was another man involved devastated me and led me on a rapid deadly spiritual spiral. I grew deeper and deeper into self destruction and was consumed by bitterness, anger, and worthlessness. I decided one morning to get things in order and to depart this world as I knew it. I got prepared and set about ending my life. As far as I knew I had succeeded, the next thing I knew was the pounding of a close friend shaking the heck out of me and screaming at me. I know he was praying now but it was really odd. No one knew where I was, where I lived, and least of all what I was doing. God had revealed to this friend, who was a "born again" Christian, the trouble I was in, so he jumped in his car and just drove not knowing where to go. He drove like his, rather my life depended on it, he came to the garage door, which was locked, it opened by itself, and the rest is history. I was fully supervised for the next several days 24/7 by some close friends that I didn't realism loved me so much. This led me to finding the Lord, and getting my life inline with him.

Everyday since that day I have lived for God, as from that day my life was a gift back from him. I made my decision, but God wouldn't accept it. I ended up going to Lifeway Bible college shortly after that, I then met a lovely young Christian woman, whom I married and now have 2 beautiful children to. Life is amazing, and it is certainly a gift from God. I now devote my time to loving the Lord, and sharing him with as many people as I can. Life is a journey of discovery that leads to one of 2 exits, Life or Death. What we choose today, decides our outcome tomorrow. We should always live today as if it were our last, and treat every opportunity as a one off. This way we can say at the end when we give account for our actions that we did the best we could with what we had to the benefit of God the Father.